February 2012
5 posts
I also feel scared and defenseless because now you’ve seen not only me at my worst, but me worn down to the max. I feel weak and fragile.
I guess I’m just a little sad, but nobody’s perfect.
this playlist will be the death of me.
I’m truly in love and this is the best feeling in the world :3
sometimes i feel like i never know anything anymore.
January 2012
13 posts
And by slow I mean very very slow.
Slow steps to recovery.
why is this happening :///
i’m falling apart.
i’ve had such a terrible day and i feel like absolute poop. :/
Awkward mental explosion on my bathroom floor this is new
Seriously. I don’t deserve this but I’m scared shitless and I wish things got better but they don’t and ugh idk I want sleep but I can’t I just can’t.
I feel like a low life today ugh
Why am I even upset
I really want to cry but I don’t have the power to and I wish I could sleep but that isn’t happening yet either. For now I’ll binge eat some chips
How am I supposed to sleep idk
I don’t know what to do and I feel dead inside
Oh…well…yeah..
December 2011
14 posts
I always do something wrong why do even bother..
O u c h.
Why do I feel like this I don’t do anything wrong.
Today wasn’t a very good day ugh. Started off bad. Continued to be bad throughout the day. And the ending of my day isn’t bad but I can’t say it’s good but I just feel really mer and I doubt tomorrow will be any better.
Ouch
Now I feel like shit
Again
S p e c t a c u l a r
Today was a perfect reminder that I have someone amazing in my life and even though everything else sucks i still have Eric here with me and that’s all that matters to me. I really love him and everything is just perfect.
G u i l t .
Ugh omg :3 I’m so happy right now this is perfect.
:3
I’m finally understanding what I should and shouldn’t do/say. Hopefully I figure it out 100% soon so these things can stop happening.
This is the best I’ve felt since Sunday and I wish i felt this infinite all throughout the week omg :3
oh okay :/
i realized that right now, these are my glory days. nothing is gonna be better than right now. when the time comes that i have to grow up and take life seriously and settle down and go to college and work a job and manage my cat and when all those thing happen, my days are over and i don’t think i’ll be the same person. i don’t wanna graduate and i don’t wanna leave here. i...
i think i really fucked it up for real this time..
now i can’t breathe
But aside from that, that was a nice way to end my night and now I shall sleep :)
I realized that everything generally offends me. I can get offended by the simplest things and people don’t even realize oops.
November 2011
30 posts
Today was a bit of a drag :/
every time my family has to go somewhere it’s always my fault we’re late. so i start getting ready a half hour earlier so that we won’t be late. then my mom tells me i’m taking too long and i got kicked out so everyone else can get ready. so once everyone’s done i can continue. we’ll probably be late now, and i’ll get blamed. o k.
this has been the worst three days of my life and tomorrow won’t be any better and i’ll just wallow away in misery until sometime on friday. instant star won’t help and gaga won’t help. everything i had has fallen apart and i can’t fix anything and i feel so low and shitty and i can’t believe this all happened so fast. i want everything to go back to the way...
i’m feeling really happy again okay good :3
A nice good cry tonight should make me feel better okay excellent
i’m gonna cry ugh :/
i’ve been in a ruejguioej mood all day and this rain doesn’t help and i want moccasins and to not go to school and i just feel bored and empty and ugh idk i don’t like today
All of these thoughts really need to disappear because I can’t be thinking like this anymore :/
I feel really strange and idt I enjoy this at all.
when bad things happen to me it isn’t every once in a while it’s like a string of 12 bad things in a row within like two hours and i just feel incredible right now.
my stomach is falling out of my butt oh no..
I haven’t had a bad night in a while why did the world choose tonight to be my bad night…
I was in such a good mood now I just wanna die okay great.
Okay a lot of guilt ugh. :/
Guilt ugh.
my sister was supposed to take me out today but she didn’t even pick me up after school and now she just went out what do i do now o k